I once heard a child who was afraid of the darkness call out: 'Auntie, talk to me, I'm frightened.' 'But what good will that do? You can't see me;' to which the child replied: 'If someone talks, it gets lighter.'

/Sigmund Freud, 'Introduction to Psychoanalysis'



so... it happened. i'm a single. i'm in London. lookin' for job. thinkin' about no future. dying and reborning, with no end of this path. sometimes i think i'm gonna go asleep through whole life. stayin' in bed forever. but sometimes i'm hopeful.

oh i wish i could know Jean Cocteau, like Roland Topor could. it's so unfair that i've no choice for living somewhere else, in the past.